Waking Up?

All of a sudden, I kena hit pulak by dis freaky idea.

"Why da hell am I pushing myself 2 b d top?"

"Why am I so stressed out, competing wif others?"

Wake up! I guess I'll revert 2 my foundation/high school persona.....enjoy my studies, not slave over them! There's no point pushing myself & getting good grades if I'm goin 2 graduate as a 4-flat freak wif no social life. Well, I guess dat kills my new yr resolution bout getting in d President's List so dat my face appears on d notice boards evrywhere. Tau pun muka tak fotogenik :P

So....does dat mean I should jz relax & enjoy d ride? Naah....it's jz dat I'm starting 2 open my eyes again & realise dat no matter wat, my parents, family, & myself will be damned happy as long as I do my best.

So wat if I scored less than 1/2 of d marks for my calculus test?

So wat if I only attempted 1/3 of d questions in d Algebra test?

There's no point whining over that. I tried my best at dat time & I can b happy, knowing dat's wat I've got. No point getting higher but complaining dat "I failed 2 reach my target", rite? But then, I hv 2 admit dat d "complaining" part is useful 4 pestering others. Wat else can be more annoying than a small kid lost in d middle of degree whining constantly, rite? :P

Wat's more meaningful is my life. I wanna gain sweet memories in uni. I wanna absorb all d sensations. I wanna create some of d fun myself. N best of all, I feel like dat darned migraine pestering me 4 months is getting its butt kicked by dis new spirit!

OMG....I'm so hyper now....it's like a breath of fresh air jz entered my lungs!

I wanna:

• Kill dat guilty conscience bout being fat. I dun care if I have a belly. As long as I'm healthy inside & outside, it's better than having a stick body while being sick 24-7
• Enjoy my life
• Remove d damned "top student" signboard imprinted on my forehead
• Gain more frenz
• Foster closer r/ship wif my frenz
• Have fun!

So, 2 those asses out there (including my old thoughts) saying dat

"U hv d potential, u can b a top student.....jz work harder"

"Dun give up....u can score higher"

Fuck. Off.

I have d potential. Evry1 has d potential. Wat differentiates each of us is not wat we have. It's wat we decide 2 do wif wat we have. N how satisfied we feel.

Hmm....gtg....better study abit 4 2moro's test.

Gud nite.....& hello, Mr. immature-dun-give-a-damn-underaged-Yong! I'm bak!