Sunday 31 August 2008

Unity or Calamity?

As Malaysia approaches its 51st anniversary, I wonder & ponder over our theme this year: "Perpaduan Teras Kejayaan". What a sweet, yet ridiculously hypocritical statement. Yes, it's true that unity brings progress. Progress brings success. But if there is no unity, only calamity awaits us. What am I crapping here? Basically, if our unity is nothing other than a mere illusion, our beloved country will definitely be in trouble.

Sejak dulu ladi, memang tidak dapat dinafikan bahawa saban hari, kita diasuh supaya mencintai tanah air. Namun demikian, sekiranya kita tidak mampu merasai, melihat, atau membayangkan sama ada tanah air kita mencintai kita, apakah yang akan terjadi? Misalnya, daripada beratus-ratus graduan SPM yang menerima biasiswa setiap tahun, kita dapat melihat dengan begitu jelasnya bagaimana pelajar-pelajar ini diklasifikasikan dalam "kategori-kategori" tertentu. Meskipun ada pihak-pihak yang tegas menjelaskan bahawa langkah ini bertujuan untuk melindungi kepentingan etnik-etnik tersebut, pada hakikatnya, terdapat kesan-kesan sampingan yang tidak dapat dilihat disebalik jendela realiti.

Do I love my country? Yes. Do I love what my countrymen have done to me? No. I work like crap, studying, revising, and fucking my brains off my head to get the so-called "minimum requirement results" which are supposed to guarantee me a scholarship. Then, I watch as each and every one of my friends who score similar results open their scholarship offer letters in glee. I can't help but hate them sometimes not for who they are or what they did but what they get. Why them? Why not me? Am I that horrendous-looking with my "sepet" eyes that the interviewers refuse to give me a scholarship no matter how well I score, no matter how many co-curricular activities I enter? Here's an example I love to quote:

My school has 8 straight-A students:

Student 1 2, 3, 4: Each of them obtains scholarshipS (several per person), offers to local universities, matriculation, etc...

Student 5, 6, 7, 8: All of us get nothing. No scholarships. No local university. No matriculation. Hey...wait....ONLY ONE of us is A BIT lucky! She got a matriculation offer at some remote place. What else? Take the only thing you are given la. The rest of us suffer in silence.

Obviously, you can figure out the identity of the 8 students & why they are segregated like that.

Meskipun tidak ada sebarang monolog luaran antara kami, setiap satu daripada kami tahu maksud tersirat di sebalik senyuman-senyuman manis kami. Secara tidak langsung, perkara biasiswa ini telah menyebabkan saya membenci kawan-kawan saya. Kenapa? Kenapakah rasa benci boleh timbul dalam diri saya terhadap kawan-kawan yang saya sayangi selama ini? Kenapakah mereka boleh memperoleh sesuatu yang kami semua layak diberi? Malah, mereka pernah memberitahu saya bahawa hati mereka ibarat dicucuk jarum-jarum berbisa setiap kali mereka melihat atau terfikirkan saya akibat perasaan kasihan, empati, dan rasa tidak puas hati terhadap ketidakadilan yang tidak patut wujud dalam negara kita. Terdapat beberapa orang dalam kalangan mereka yang menyatakan mereka sanggup menyerahkan biasiswa mereka kepada kami yang juga layak. Sayang sekali, meskipun hati kami memang tersentuh, tidak dapat dinafikan bahawa lautan duri telahpun wujud antara kami tanpa disedari.

It hurts for me to think of my secondary school friends. It hurts for them to see me. It hurts for us to see each other. And where does this problem stem from? The all-powerful people we vote for, we place our trust in. Their desire to protect a certain class of people will only turn the protection into destruction. Those treated unjustly will only rebel, hate, and despise the country. When they serve outsiders who treat them better than their own country, they are labeled as traitors. "No patriotism" .... "Not contributing to their own country" .... "Brain drain" .... "Ungrateful of the country's deeds towards them". Well, let's ask them one simple question: What exactly did you do to/for us? You know it yourself. We do not hate each other because of the color of our skin. It all begins from our education system, the very basis of our mentality.

Sehingga saat masalah ini ditangani, kita tidak akan mampu melihat negara kita mencapai kejayaan melalui perpaduan atau apapun caranya. Berilah peluang kepada masyarakat anda untuk berdiri atas kaki sendiri. Janganlah dukung mereka sepanjang hayat mereka. Kurangkan atau potong bantuan dan pertolongan yang kamu curahkan atas mereka. Jangan sesekali lupa bahawa wang yang kamu siram atas mereka ibarat hujan juga terdiri daripada cukai yang dibayar oleh orang lain.

As I cried alone that day (like I've been doing frequently recently), I realized one thing: Why must I hate my friends? This is a ridiculously unjustified feeling which shouldn't exist at all. They are my friends no matter what. It's the scholarship giving assholes who are my enemies. My friends deserve every ringgit of the scholarships they got. The problem is that I didn't get what I deserved. So what? I'll still study at my current private university, like others of the same skin color as me. If you even dare to pester me now, saying that you decided to give me the scholarship after all, I'll tell you to fuck off. I'd rather study with my great lecturers & friends here than ditch them halfway for a scholarship you "donated" to me out of "generosity". I'll obtain my degree, Masters, PhD all without using your money. (Note: Your money comes from the taxes we pay anyway) When I go to work for someone else, you cannot say that I don't love my country. After all, I have yet to see any love, gratitude, or even acknowledgment from you in the past, present, or even the future.

So....let's ponder on the topic once more. Unity is the mother of success. But, if unity is killed from its very womb, how do we expect it to even give birth to success? May you have a Merdeka day which is actually thoughtful rather than the money-burning parades and activities I see on television. By the way, I'm watching television alone while I declined an invitation from my scholarship friends to go shopping with them. Why? It hurts.

The damage is done.

Saturday 30 August 2008

zZz

Felt lazy 2 type 2day so I edit2, crop2 & paste2 pics 2 bcome dis weird diagram....click 4 a closer look. I'll b posting on d individual pics soon if u wan 2 c dem clearer.


Friday 29 August 2008

Love & Betrayal...

Here's d case. We hv 2 characters:

A guy named Mr. K.
A gal named Miss S.

Mr. K allowed Miss S 2 copy his report discussions. D lcturer found out. D lcturer questioned Mr. K & Miss S.

Quotes:
-when confronted by d lcturer-
Miss S: "He copied me! My grammar better, he ma copy me la!"
Mr. K: "Ya....I copied her....."

-l8r, whn Miss S wasn't around-
Mr. K: "Lecturer, lecturer, dun blame her. I'm totally responsible 4 dis. Deduct my marks only, not hers..."

How do we judge such ppl? One is totally blinded by love 2 d extent of extreme self-sacrifice, even when d prson he loves is backstabbing him. D other's attitude is so scary & selfish, we wonder hw & why da heck d guy still loves her......

Thursday 28 August 2008

Hesmond = Playboy???

It seems dat evry1's tinking of d same question these days:

Wat exactly is Hesmond's "preference"??? Kejap2 we c him wif his "husband", then we c him wif his "wife"....yg mana ni???


Dey jz can't control themselves in claz sumtimes....



But then, these 2 look pretty couple-ly 2 us too....



But nothing can beat d passion of Hesmond & Chris!!! He's goin after her!!! Eh...wait....she's goin after him!!! Eh...wait...we jz dunno hu is "he" & hu is "she" ?!



But then....Hesmond & Chloe so mesra dat dey hv 2 adjust d air-con controls 2gether....



To add more confusion, Hesmond's PR gal refused 2 comment!!!


How leh? Will we hv a:

Chris Oon + Hesmond Yoong?
or
Chloe Oon + Hesmond Chau?

Monday 25 August 2008

Sleepyheads

Guess hu these sleepyheads are????























Another lame excuse for not updating.....

Thursday 21 August 2008

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!

1) My friend/soulmate/bitching partner/gossip buddy/mum, Madam Yeoh Gek Sim!!!

2) My physics lecturer, Miss Joanne Yap Lay Min!!!


Miss Yap is older than me yet looks younger.

Madam Yeoh @ my mum is 10 days older than M'sia yet she acts waaaaaaay immature.

BTW, thx 2 Aason, Ying Keat, Ming Sern, & CK 4 greeting my parents @ How Yekee -_- zZz

Shi Hooi + Ken???

Even Sem 1 lcturers are here 4 more gossip!!!



Wat else? Give them gossip la!!!

Latest fictional couple: Shi Hooi & Ken.....stale news la 4 those gossip freaks but 2 those hu dunno yet, here's "evidence" !!!


He approaches her silently...



OMG?! Wat's he doing?!



He strikes!!!



He catches her!!!!


-the following parts of the event have been censored-



After the incident....Shi Hooi seems more silent than usual...wat happened???



Why??? Why did u choose 2 go after Shi Hooi??? She memang pendiam...after u dat "event" lagi silent pulak....



Ni pulak dunno wat souvenir he got on his fingernail....haiz....



Syok sendiri pulak...wear lab coat while performing "maintainnance" on his fingernail pulak...



See....so mengada....tak bagi our photographers take his pic pulak...



Sampai sini saja la 2day....damn tired...thx 4 reading!!!

Tuesday 19 August 2008

Memories...

Ever thought it was surprising hw my fictional post bout Thilak & Hema turned into reality? Well.....I definitely was surprised like **** la!!! Well....jz 4 fun...here's a post entitled "memories"...



Quarreling...



Fighting.....



Crying....



Merajuk-ing....tengok siapa tu kat belah kanan merajuk :P



Regret....



Our photographers pulak susah payah stalk them...





The couple caught in d act...






No point trying to hide yr face from us la....2 late!!!



The hidden messages....(faham2 la why he wore dat earring)



Now....fiction dah jadi reality...




BONUS PIC!!!!


Dis might b normal 4 some of u guys/gals bt 4 those shocked ppl...here's yr chance 2 start gossiping!!

Back once more...

Eh?? Why lama tak update?? Evry1 seems 2 b scratchin their heads (or chin) wondering where their blogger disappeared...







Since their main source of gossip dah M.I.A, some decide2 call each other 4 news instead....




Boringnya.....how leh???





That's it!!! Saya dah x boleh tahan!!! U better update yr blog or u sure mati!!!




Waa?! So drastic ah?!



Yaay!!! The blogger is back!!!
 

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